a Pacifica Forum - observations from a sponsor of KPFK

Kpfk-ers  and LSBers and PNB Pacifica people are unusual :

 [as repeatedly observed and perceived and considered in groups  in their congregated meetings such as PNB meeting in LA hosted -- -and paid for our by KPFK station budget ] :

As observed, these folks are  not the ‘normal’ ordinary people as one might meet at a grocery store, park, movie or shopping in any store.

These people are: extreme ! in most many ways --  these folks are : 

+ very ultra-controlling-people, while refusing this label or even any hint they may be so

+ like to dominate while presenting as-if agreeable-only type

+ idealists , wanting to make a ‘better world’ by themselves

+ intolerant of differences in mind and suspicious of others and any other ideas than their own

+ diligent workers and detail conscious

+intense + emotionally reactive- to almost everything presented  !

+ in denial of difference between who they Think they are and how they act

+ smart + know lotsa facts plus gotta be RIGHT all the time or they get mad !

+ loyal to their causes, like any cultists or adherents to any religion are too

+ good with words + clever repartes, quick come-backs, angry-attacks, and watching YOUR words for any malintents they may find outside of their own   

+ rarely smile at each other [tho they may smile at the down-trodden/victims/poorer ones]

+ refuse to laugh or be friendly for the dangers of letting anyone see them other than well defended.

+ exclusive, in-groupy, speaking only to ‘their own’ and not outsiders [unless they are dis-empowered ]

+ of course, these folk want the Best for their own causes/ station [but are also] secretly biased to any ‘under-dog’ & latest Victims available or found anywhere, even animals maybe.....

+ seeking their own ‘holy’ grail-goal = want their own “perfect” world”

+act often in passive-aggressive-anger unless provoked and then Righteous Anger is wildly exhibited

+ like denial-self-pretending they are ‘nice’, ‘courteous’, ‘kind’, and ‘unbiased’ when those qualities are not easily exhibited in their meetings with others of similar ilk [or while pretending to be oh so polite. for moment, till righteous anger wells up, yet again Or shout, scream, yell in wild Angry fits 

+ extremely reactive in many emotional ways, instantly, w/o a breath in between

+ demanding lotsa Attention while pretending it is not demanded, expected, or needed

+  are very Involved, immersed, and  clinging tightly to their ideas, their group, their cohorts, those like them whom they may trust, a bit

+ insist everyone accede  to their demands

+ dedicated to their IDEAS only and having own version, that becomes the Only ONE allowed    in their presence, or arguments ensue

+ intolerant of any other – views, people, politics, ideas - of what is RIGHT  and not theirs

+ assume that  their own is the ONLY Perfect way/world/self

+  secretly identify as victim/hurt/powerless while pretending they are Not needy, hurt, vulnerable too

+ prefer Rescuing and Saving others, to be the more-powerful-giver, helper, do-gooder, in image

+ want to rescue & be savoir to others –anyone who are visibly any out-group

+ are ambitious [but denies to self this strong hidden desire]

+ strong willed + thus stubbornly DEMANDING [while imaging they are only ‘nice’ & ‘just askin’]

+ intend to be Useful to others =those  that look like they recognize themselves inwardly are

+ dedicated own version of How It Must Be – with no alternatives allowed –

+  they Know Right Best

+ intent  to “SAVE out world”, all of it , no matter what else/ harm/ consequences occur too

+ intrusive with others, assuming that priviledge they don’t give equally to any other person

+ interuptive with their righteous ideas and presumptions

+ talkative and fast-talking, debative, argumentative, able to out-talk most ordinary people

+ Have To have the Last WORD – at almost any cost - to another

+  slyly ambitious:    to be best/most /one-downest / helpfulest / usefulest / et.al

+ desire to be IMPORTANT [but not admitted, ever ! ]

+ do-gooder to prove themselves as “good” after all, to prove themselves against parents/ others.

+ want to be recognized [only for qualities they admit and like, none other ]

+ are consistently  Power-Games PLAYER [denied],

+ are  prejudiced only to down-trodden, and against anyone who has anything, or more

+ become self-sabotaging, and suffer but secretly, in hiding....as these behaviors are difficult and unhealthy as they prevent ‘flow’, or ‘social generosity’ or ‘good social skills with 'acceptability’

 

+ these folks are not just all the ‘bad’ descriptions above but contain more that they make less visible and only share with the selected trusted few whom they allow. The rest of ‘us’ can just take a hike or a jump or a s....t because these folks do not ever want to “change” or improve and arrogantly think/ hope they don’t have to do anything other than – save/ help poor [other] people. The secret arrogance of pride and avarice are not known or well hidden and not faced or admitted.

so who cares ? who defines anyone else ? who describes another without some recognition ?

who dares confront and call those who are so dedicated to “changing the world and making it better”?

who can describe from mere observation and bit of interaction the behaviors seen in a room of 50+ people for 2x  12-hr days ?

And it was also clear and obvious to anyone who observed the happenings in that room - that the KPFK-LA staff, programmers who came to this PNB forum did not act friendly nor recognize those who were long-time volunteers at the station and did not ‘see’ anyone but their own in-group friends and walk out of meeting after having ‘their say’ at microphone and did not stay to hear the others’ msgs.

That was noticeable that the KPFK official people  could wait for their turn to make a “public comment” – available to everyone present -  to the  PNB --- while  listeners who sat separately in a packed 1/8 of the room were ignored as if ‘furniture there’ to be dismissed as unpowered people crowding the space. 

No friendly smiles, no greetings, no eye contact nor any outreach from those who ‘own’ the KPFK station, or act as if they do because they are staff or hold program on-air access spaces. Strange contortions to avoid making any ‘contact’ with strangers who may be ‘enemies’ or ‘others’   maybe ?

and the PNB folks ? they did not provide a list of names or which stations they had emerged from to be flown by Pacifica funds to this LA meeting for the listener-sponsors here to know who was talking to other PNB – in their separate close horseshoe way,  while the public sat in a rectangle of tight-fitted chairs in ‘back’ of room with some PNB people’s backs. 

One PNB woman from Texas continually acted controlling, parentaly, and reprimanding any public outbursts or any attempts to disagree with PNBers- who were faced elsewhere and  talking only to each other for hours and hours .... with the 10”  allowance of public comments that  were allowed - for as many sponsors [and KPFK staff & programmers there]  as wanted to address all of those in the room – who were mostly PNBers -  and the new Exe Director of Pacifica was the only one who appeared genuinely interested in all being said and acted less emotionally reactive than the exclusive PNB  “members”.  

This same  power-playing woman took it upon herself alone to act as if she was the protector, the definer, the admonisher, the head of the PNB group of which she was a mere member = with her attitude of entitlement that no other PNB seemed to question ! She yelled at a public person, stood in front of another one videoing a PNB speaker, took fotos herself without permission and claiming “but it is a  public...” when asked to refrain.

PNB people argued, discussed, yelled, disputed,  balked, voted, made motions, got attention and tried to dominate the meeting and others in the room, as was possible.   

The Los Angeles people sat and waited and sat and waited and gave a 1 or 2 second public comment to all in room and sat and waited and wondered why . The food provided to all, after PNB were served first, paid for by KPFK, was good and generous.

The location was free and provided by a PNB’s employer generously. Parking was easy and the June 12-15 days full of words, disputes, motions, mismatched intentions, good monitoring by the chair and secretaries and was recorded for eternity on an audio by a real audio-engineer too. But who would want to listen to hours upon many too many hours of voices outshouting the others and overlapping to drown any opinion but their own later or elsewhere ?

 maybe ? someone ?

The energy was fierce and the attendees were excitable. The observations were noted and transcribed here to inform , make transparent and give the view that is under covers and denied by most of those present at this PNB forum, as are other LSB meetings of stations elsewhere similarly run.

Everyone needs to visit and see what happens at these meetings and forums -  and learn  how those who control so much money [ that is raised from fundraisers at each station and some transferred to this Pacifica national board to oversee them] act, behave, believe, and use their power. 

Millions of $$$$ are in danger of being wasted or misspent, even if PNB members are not paid in cash or employees of Pacifica, they have big benefits and lots of POWER they dont admit to controlling and using in any way they chose. Come to an LSB meeting at LA's KPFK and see the similar patterns of similar people who are not different and not nicer either, right in our own home town and whom we give privilege to elect PNB members from here to Pacifica to run all the 5 stations & affiliate radio stations too. 

Come in one time, and see for yourself. 

(c) mj 2015